Today started with wee in a bag…

When I first found out at was pregnant with Bean, I, like most expectant mothers, worried about all the problems that could arise once a little person enters your life. I worried about her arrival into the world, if I my motherly instincts would kick in straight away, what if she ever became seriously ill….could I handle that??
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Coping with a bad day

Today Ive woken up feeling….. wrong!

I don’t know why, I just feel foggy, on edge, anxious, wobbly and irritable.

I had a fab day with my family yesterday, lots of pumpkin carving and Halloween fun with plenty of sweets and bad for me food that tastes oh so good!!! I felt a bit wobbly and forgetful in the day but I perked up in the evening, ready for a family party.

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More than JUST a Mum

This morning I woke up defeated!!

When I say “woke up”, I actually mean “got out of bed” as it seems the Bean has officially decided that sleep is for losers and if she’s awake all night, so is Mummy!!!!!

I’m exhausted, emotional and having a fibro flair up and make matters even worse, Negative Nelly shows up to kick me when I’m down.
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Dear Beautiful Bean….

You were never part of my plan, not in the beginning.

Long before I met your Daddy, I was married to another man and had planned to have a baby with him. But he made Mummy very sad. All I ever wanted in life was to be someone’s Mummy, but not like this. I didn’t want to bring up a child in a home where the Daddy shouted all the time and made the Mummy cry.
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